I lived with PTSD for 40 years, after molestation by a Catholic priest at age five. Read my story as I write it here through 2015.

This is a True Story

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Tuesday, December 17, 2013

Preview

Faster Than the Speed of Life 
(What a pedophile priest survivor discovered when she took to the internet to seek justice. To be posted on line here at City of Angels 15 through 2015. First excerpt coming in January.)

April 2012:  Okay just called St. Peter Damian Church and said, “I'm Katy Jones and I'm in town for six weeks and wondered if you have boxes of stuff I can go through from the early years of the church say, 1949 to 1955.”  

I said, “My dad was an usher there then and my mom played the organ, so I was hoping I’d be able to find pictures or old news clippings about the church from that time.  I wondered if you have anything?”

She said “There is something in storage."  And then she asked, "What was your name again?"

My dang inability to lie clicked in, and before I knew it I said “Ebeling.  The family name is Ebeling.  His name was George, hers was Lucille.”

It seemed to be taking her a while to write that down in the silence from the other end of the phone, then she said, “Okay, I'll check into it and call you back.”

We'll see.

Yes, I filed a lawsuit against the Chicago Archdiocese last year, along with my sister, because we were molested in the fifties by just one of three pedophile priests at St. Peter Damian in Bartlett IL, but hey, my dad helped found this church.

Dang.

My plan had been to show up in person and the phone call was just to find out when there was a person in the office who could show me boxes, as last time I went during posted office hours there was no one there. 

But now I said the name Ebeling to her on the phone.

We'll see if she calls back.  

I'm not good at subterfuge at all.

December 2014:  They never called.

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Sunday, December 15, 2013

Sample paragraphs coming next January, meanwhile on Facebook

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News where you can hear, even the crew laughs out loud, bk it's delivered so funny. By Rachel Maddow, my main source, who btw makes me wonder if I too am a dike, just Father Horne caused me to never realize it. Anyway, watch the segment here called "C-Span Captures Sputtering End..." and you too will laugh out loud while learning current events on a Sunday. Good morning
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  • Kay Ebeling That's a line of dialogue, btw, that I am trying to perfect: I could have been a dike, but I don't know it, bk a Catholic priest aroused me at age five and I went crazy after any man who resembled him the next 40 years. So who knows. Maybe I really am a lesbian. That's just one more way these priests fucked with us. literally fucked with us.
  • Kay Ebeling still needs work
  • Kay Ebeling fucked works better than screwed, hate to say it

Monday, December 2, 2013

MEANWHILE
Just think what it does to a kid at age five or six, to arouse them sexually and never tell them what that feeling is, just leave the child feeling it. Then add to that, the molester is a Catholic priest who your family thinks is a saint. I mean, no wonder I was so screwed up so long, it's a wonder I made it to age 65 at all with all the STDs and serial rapist-killers out there. So I may as well enjoy what's left of my life. But Man!
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Monday, November 18, 2013

Watch for the Whole Story Here in 2015-16

This is all still going to happen, Faster Than the Speed of Life, story at CofA 15, and CofA16 for the R-rated parts, but instead of posting half-finished rushed work, I'm writing it over the next three years, to be edited, then finalized, and THEN posted.  

The story of what I went through doing City of Angels Blog, all the weirdness, the people I interviewed, the undercover agents fucking with me, the strange strange strange stuff that took place in my personal life once the blog started doing damage to the Church, the way the Chicago Archdiocese screwed around in my case.  All of it will be published here late 2015 early 2016 in a story to then be pitched as a cable series.  Stay tuned.  

My goal is to finish in early 2016.  Now and then I might post an excerpt here, but the goal is to publish the whole shebang, all the chapters links and pictures, at one time in two-three years.  Then publicize it and get a deal, a Showtime or HBO series.  

I Am Working On It.  It will happen.  

I do still need PayPal clicks to keep alive.

Meanwhile I Could Shoot Myself
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Have to get out the sketch pad as I didn't get the photo right.  Last spring at my perp church,  I tried to get a shot that would match this pic of my perp priest Father Horne from 1953 or so:
Pictured above is Father Thomas Barry Horne-y in front of St. Peter Damian church in Bartlett IL in 1953.  Below is the church today from "My Trip to Bartlett in 2012-13" but I Did Not Get the Angle Right.  Well, almost got it right in the shot below.  What I need to do now is print this and then draw in Father Horny as I imagine him now.

Because I really don't want to go back there just to photograph it again.
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ke

Wednesday, October 30, 2013

This is all still going to happen, Faster Than the Speed of Life, story at CofA 15, and CofA16 for the R-rated parts, but instead of posting half-finished rushed work, I'm writing it over the next three years, to be edited, then finalized, and THEN posted.  

The story of what I went through doing City of Angels Blog, all the weirdness, the people I interviewed, the undercover agents fucking with me, the strange strange strange stuff that took place in my personal life once the blog started doing damage to the Church, the way the Chicago Archdiocese screwed around in my case.  All of it will be published here late 2015 early 2016 in a story to then be pitched as a cable series.  Stay tuned.  

My goal is to finish in early 2016.  Now and then I might post an excerpt here, but the goal is to publish the whole shebang, all the chapters links and pictures, at one time in two-three years.  Then publicize it and get a deal, a Showtime or HBO series.  

I Am Working On It.  It will happen.  

-ke

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Update: Cold Sores and Hiding in Chicago is Over

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Look at the size of the cold sore I had on my mouth the whole time I was in Chicago. 

Just being in the geographic region where the abuse happened in 1953-5 had a physical effect on me, making me mostly too sick to accomplish much.  The whole time I was in Chicago last year my eyes ran and I'd get these infections that popped and drained, inside the eyelid. It was really gross and I hid inside a lot because of it, certain I had lupus. But since moving to the desert last June, I am suddenly healthy.  Barely resemble the person in these pics from May 2013 in Chicago just before I came home.

So now, I guess you'd say I'm recovering from the trip last three years, in fact I'm reeling from how awful the trip was the last three years, I'm writing and rewriting drafts for this blog, and at the same time, wishing none of this happened so I could just hang out and watch movies.  

But I can't.  This whole story really happened and I can't retire until I tell it.

This whole project is happening slower than I'd like.  But it is happening.  For instance, now I am going through notes from my trip to Bartlett and found these pictures.  

The Catholic Church attacked me for doing this blog on several levels, that's all I'll say for now, but that is the underlying theme of this story, that is what drives it, and there will be more coming shortly.  

I honestly think I still have to put some distance between me and what happened to sort it out.  Rereading old notes from the period is very revealing.   

So glad I'm living in the Mojave Desert now 

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More to Come, promise, -kay ebeling



Shoot.  Looking at that cold sore, remembering how sick I was the whole time I was there. . . wonder if they poisoned me too. . . naaah, it's the power of geography.
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Monday, September 9, 2013

Writing it now, to post when the weather cools

Monday, August 19, 2013

Free Book Online Works better for all of us.


COMING THIS FALL:
I'm writing the book and posting it here online for free. 

That way you don't have to pay $12.95 to read it and I get more readers.  If you have five bucks, put it on my PayPal Donate Button.  If you don't have five bucks, read for free.  If you have way more than five bucks, click with multiples of fives on the PayPal button.  That way the book gets financed and read as it is being written.

And there is even going to be R-Rated outtakes, or an R-rated version here:

Sunday, August 11, 2013

Adults Only version at the blog next door

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We are expanding our reach at City of Angels Blog.

As of this fall you will be able to read an Adults Only version of Faster Than the Speed of Life at the blog next door, CofA 16.  Here is the announcement from yesterday, hmm, interesting.  Posting this here made me realize the way I've designed the R-Rated version, it doeso not copy and paste real well.

That's fine.  Serendipity Rules.  Click the title to read the whole story, even though it does not look that way.  This is a work in progress...

Introducing R-Rated Version of City of Angels Blog

Adults Only Version 
of Faster than the Speed of Life

Here, I'm going to add SEX to the story at CofA 15 and post the whole "book" free as an Adults Only blog (with a place to send PayPal high-$5 clicks, the Donate button top right).

I'm going to write it all, from what happened with the priest when I was preschool aged to what happened to me doing the blog in my fifties, with all the sexual dysfunction of my life in between, YES, add in all the SEX because SEX SELLS and since it permeates my story, Why The F--- Not?  So here is where it will be posted, first chapter coming soon after the weather cools.

I've been writing this story at CofA 1-30 since 2006 and at Faster Than the Speed of Life both blogs in a disjointed fashion, throwing in a personal post here and there in between journalism coverage of the pedophile priest epidemic.  And I've held to a steady two to three hundred readers for six and a half years.

Recently I decided, why not include the sex.  My story just happens to be full of sex but I've politely left most of it out so far, when, face it, sex is what gets readers into your story.  Continue Reading.

BECAUSE

Free Book Online works better in a number of ways

.You don't have to pay 12.95 to read it and I get more readers.  If you have five bucks, put it on my PayPal Donate button.  If you don't, read for free.  If you have lots of five dollar bills, click with multiples of five on the PayPal button.  That way the book gets financed and read all at the same time.

Enjoy.


Adults Only Version of Faster Than the Speed of Life at Cityofangels16

Thursday, August 8, 2013

If you Google my perp priest, this is what comes up

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Update Friday AM: What I don't get is why my Google News alert for Father Thomas Barry Horne did not bring in this post in my email this AM.  Sigh, the far-reaching arms of the church is the reason, I believe, as no new posts I write about him ever come into my email in the following days as Google News Alerts. 

The bad guys in the pedophile priest cover-up story are amazingly powerful. 

A lot but not all of these links written by me:

  1. Priest accused of abuse in the 1950s - Chicago Tribune 

    articles.chicagotribune.com › Featured Articles  › Chicago Archdiocese 

    Aug 3, 2011 - ... both in their 60s, say they repressed memories of abuse at the hands of the RevThomas Barry Horne for several decades. It wasn't until they ...

  2. That Priest Lied to Me Last July in Chicago, Saying No One Else ... 

    www.bishop-accountability.org/.../2008_09_27_Ebeling_ThatPriest.htm

    Sep 27, 2008 - He must have been lying, because I know for a fact there had been a previous report of child abuse about Father Thomas Barry Horne.

  3. VOTF Ireland Letter to Bishops Triggers Me, As I Was Raped in ... 

    www.bishop-accountability.org/.../2008_03_04_Ebeling_VOTFIreland....

    Mar 4, 2008 - Above: FrThomas Barry Horne in front of St. Peter Damian Church, c. 1953 ... FrThomas Barry Horne used the Confessional to get to me, and ...

  4. CofA8: 2010 (PippiLeaks): Why does Father Thomas Barry Horne ... 

    cityofangels8.blogspot.com/.../why-does-father-thomas-barry-horne-na...

    Oct 14, 2010 - The VOTF report on priests accused of pedophilia in Chicago Archdiocese does not show all the pedophile priests accused, only the ones ...

  5. OpEdNews - Article: Investigating pedophile priests in one small town 

    www.opednews.com/.../Going-off-to-The-Woods-to--by-Kay-Ebeling-0...

    Jul 2, 2008 - Father Thomas Barry Horne was a regular at my parents' cocktail parties. The house had a tower. A Tower. Honest. My playroom was at the top ...


    *: Chi Archdiocese tries to silence CofA Blog, read story here at CofA ... cityofangels12.blogspot.com/.../chi-archdiocese-tries-to-silence-cofa.htm...

  6. Apr 18, 2012 - But if I initiated the request and asked THEM for “confidentiality and an end to all publicity” about the crimes of Father Thomas Barry Horne, the ...

  7. *: Father Horne Notes - City of Angels Blog 


    cityofangels12.blogspot.com/2012/05/father-horne-notes.html

    May 29, 2012 - Father Thomas Barry Horne, perpetrator in my story, held retreats for children and priests "in every state of the union" says this news article from ...

  8. Victims Of Silence - Bulletin Boards 

    www.bulletinboards.com/v2.cfm?comcode...cat...

    But if I initiated the request and asked THEM for “confidentiality and an end to all publicity” about the crimes of Father Thomas Barry Horne, the Archdiocese ...


    1. Father+Thomas+Barry+Horne | Blithe Spirit 

      blithespirit.wordpress.com/tag/fatherthomasbarryhorne/

      Apr 18, 2011 - Posts about Father+Thomas+Barry+Horne written by Jim Bowman.

    2. St. Peter Damian Catholic Church - Bartlett, IL - Religious ... 

      https://www.facebook.com/pages/St-Peter.../111322525577507?sk...

      St. Peter Damian Catholic Church, Bartlett, IL. 154 likes · 3 talking about this · 459 were here.

    3. Bartlett, Village of, then just a stop on the train. in Archdiocese of ... 

      survivorsofclergysexualabusefortruthandjustice.yuku.com/.../Bartlett-Vill...

      Feb 3, 2007 - Tags : None. My perp, Father Thomas Barry Horne, came to Bartlett from Chicago in 1949 to set up the new parish there, a brand new church.

    4. That was Me, I thought, as I watched My Week with Marilyn 

      cityofangels15.blogspot.com/.../that-was-me-i-thought-as-i-watched-my....

      May 29, 2012 - Patricia is the only other person I know of, so far, that was molested byFather Thomas Barry Horne of Bartlett Illinois, both of us as preschoolers ...

    5. recovered memories of alleged priest sex abuse, Orthodox Jewish ... 

      eassurvey.wordpress.com/.../recovered-memories-of-alleged-priest-sex-a...

      Aug 4, 2011 - ... both in their 60s, say they repressed memories of abuse at the hands of the RevThomas Barry Horne for several decades. It wasn't until they ...

    6. CofA3 2007: L.A. Clergy Cases: With perpetrators like Mark Falvey ... 

      cityofangels3.blogspot.com/.../with-perpetrators-like-mark-falvey-and.ht...

      Jul 31, 2007 - That priest was in Orange County not LA and Father Who? We haven't.... So Father Thomas Barry Horne filled my head with his fantasies as an ...

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