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Friday, July 5, 2013

All my life I had a weird confusion of sexuality and religion.

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Why did you leave the Yoga ashram, people always ask me, about the period I spent with Swami Satchidananda’s group in the early 1970s.

Well they got kind of extreme, I answer.  They took vows of…

“Chastity?”

Yeah well even more than chastity.  They called it Bramacharya.  

After a visit from the Swami, the ashram began teaching a new kind of yoga where you have no sex at all.  They say energy you would expel in sex instead gets channeled into a kundalini meditation to die for.  So there they were, all the guys, all of a sudden wearing orange robes to show they'd taken Bramacharya vows. 

People look at me and ask, “You took a vow of chastity?”

I say, “Not me.  I got pregnant.” 

I was running the kitchen and I got knocked up.

By the guy who delivered the 50-pound sacks of brown rice.
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